Sunday, September 6, 2015

Mushy Mom

I keep gushing over how my baby will be turning a year old in a couple of weeks. I can not stop talking about her party, the plans and every detail. I am getting so excited for her first birthday, I think my husband is going to duct tape my mouth shut. Which surprises me because I am the completely opposite of a girly girl. I was always the one playing in mud and my husband says that I am a dude. I did cheer basically my entire life, but that was just to be closer to the crunching of the shoulder pads and to yell at the football players to get their asses in gear! 

With that being said I am also very sad that my baby is turning a year old. I cannot believe that it has been a year already, like I don't get it. The first year of Benson's life went by super fast, but I feel like Marlee's first year went by a warp speed. Both of my children started walking at nine mouths, so they were/ are pretty crazy by a year old. Benson was pushing chairs to get to the counters by a year. Marlee being on the shorter side is trying to climb furniture with little success and I am okay with that.

It is just hard for me to get over it. My husband does not want anymore kids, even though I think I want one more. So realizing that she is my last baby is a hard pill to swallow. I feel that at  27 I am not ready to make the decision that I don't want anymore children. I told him if we didn't have anymore by 30 I would get my tubes tide though, because I DO NOT want anymore after 30.

She is my baby though. My little fuzzy headed girl. Who gives kisses with her tongue out. Who loves to wave, clap and dance. Her screams is so high pitched it could break glass. But I love her. I never thought I could be a "girl" mom, but she is sure making it amazing!

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  1. I'm 31 and pregnant with my second. Never say never ;) You never know how your opinions will change on matters like this!

    x,
    Esther
    The Cuteness

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    1. Oh I miss being pregnant! :-) Hope all is well.

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  2. I can completely relate to the feelings just before baby's first birthday! Eek! We only plan on having one child, but we always say "We can always change our minds." Maybe y'all can start saying that, maybe it will ease your heartache! :*

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    1. I wish he would say maybe, but I definitely do to ease my mind

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  3. Aw, they really do grow up to fast :( I wish we could go back and time and cuddle our babies for a few short minutes all over again! But I guess they still are cuddle-able :)

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    1. Me too! My son is 2.5 and is still a cuddle bug. She is not :-) but I would love them to be tiny again.

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  4. I sent just sent my "baby" off to kindergarten this morning!! It does go by so fast!

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    1. Too fast. Benson (2.5) puts his backpack on and asks to go to school and wants me to go with him. I told him if I could I would :-(

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  5. I feel ya, I loath how fast the first year goes! I wish my kids would just stop for a bit so we could enjoy the younger years a bit longer! I loved reading this! Thank you for sharing!

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    1. Me too! Time really is not our friend as parents. I never understood why my mom would cry every year before my birthday when I would tease her about how old I was going to be. ( I am the baby) And now I get it! They turn us into softies!

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